Miss ko na talaga magblog. Napalitan na ng facebook ang utak ko, as in. Addict na ko sa games since last summer, kaya heto, ang tagal kong nawala at ngayon, tinatry kong makabalik.
Ok, madami talagang nangyari since nawala ako dito, I'll just list them down but I'll post the details next time.
Nagkaron ako ng A(H1N1)
I became the leader of our group.
Ang daming bagong hot C.I's sa school namin.
I experienced failing since last 2 years.
Sobrang naghabol ako sa lessons
I became popular at my school just because of the Swine flu--
..my professors loved me because of it!
I failed Oral revalida
Naka away ko partner ko.
Meron na kaming O.R/D.R duty every thursday
May gf na ung Ex ko. (I think, this is just an old story)
Naiirita ko sa iba kong friends, I'm beginning to doubt them.
Mahal ko na yung iba kong close friends sa college.
Absent ako ngayon.
I tried smoking but I failed.
Umiinom na ulit ako at naka epxerience pumasok sa class ng lasing. Thanks to MATADOR!
Nanghihina na loob ko sa course ko.
Mas dumami friends ko ngayon.
Favorite DAW ako ng adviser namin
Crush ko siya. :D I mean, yung adviser namin. ) Kaso parang bakla, pero may gf. Galing siya sa FEU.
Crush ko siya. :D (Si Mamar).
Tumigil na yung iba sa paninira sakin.
Nakakarma na yung ibang umaway sakin.
I'm loving myself more than before. :D
Na-shocked ako kasi hermaphrodite pala si Lady Gago! Lady Gaga pala!
I'm ready to fall in love again.
Bitter pa din ako sa ex-bestfriend ko.
Break na si Phoebe and Ikko.
I need motivation para ipagpatuloy pa ang kalokohan na 'to.
Nakakita na ko ng UTERUS - CS case sa O.R. and hindi ako natakot. This is one reason why I'm still loving this shit.
Dito na nakatira ung sister ko with our parents.
May bf na kano yung ate ko.
Naiinis talaga ko sa partner ko!! Buti na lang mahal ako ng prof namin.
Walang nakapasa sa prelim exam sa section namin, I got the highest score, 64/100. 1 point na lang, pinagkait pa!
Madami pala talagang insecure sa room namin. But I don't give a damn.
Last friday, natuloy na rin yung balak namin ng mga highschool friends ko na magkitakita. Of course, sa previous school kami nagkita and at the same time, humingi na rin ako ng request about my form 137. Ang daming nagbago sa school namin, the place, the people, yung iba nandun pa din. Former adviser ko yung nakausap ko about my form137, at nagwowork na siya with the principal. Former english teacher ko ang bagong principal dun. Nagulat talaga ko nung sinabi ng isa kong friend yun. Anyway, after sa school, bumili na kami ng pagkain, puro junk foods. XDDD and bumili din kami ng noodles and itlog. Tatlo lang naman kami pero ang daming pagkain. Nakakatawa yung nangyari sa noodles na niluto namin kasi hindi siya naluto dahil naubusan ng gas yung friend ko, so naglasang itlog yung sabaw, buti na lang dumating yung dad niya to help us. Nanonood na kami ng horror movie nun, nagdala kasi ako ng dvd. Anu pa nga bang mangyayari pag matagal na kayong hindi nagkita diba? Eh di yun, hindi rin namin natapos yung movie, nagkwentuhan na lang kami habang kumakain tapos naginternet na rin. Dun ko nakita na may bago na ngang girlfriend yung previous ex-boyfriend ko. May pictures sila ng girlfriend niya sa multiply - kissing. XDDD I was totally surprised, hurt a bit but after a while, I was happy for him. Ang chaka naman ng girl eh. Kahit dati naman, masaya na talaga siya sa mga chaka! LOLOLOL~
I opened up my thoughts and feelings dun sa dalawa kong friends na kasama that time. Lahat ng nangyari at nagbago simula college. Kung bakit wala na kami nung bestfriend ko, kahit yung tungkol kay Jessica, nakwento ko na rin kasi naman, nagulat ako dahil hindi pala nila alam na nakaaway ko yun nung highschool. Akala ko galit silang lahat sakin dahil sa mga ginawa ko nung highschool but I admit naman na naguluhan ako that time and pinagsisisihan ko na lahat ng yon. Pero sabi naman nila, mali daw talaga nun si Jessica. I dunno pero sa tingin ko hindi ko talaga dapat ginawa yun. She's still my friend afterall. May point din sila na iba talaga pag sa friend mo nagkagusto yung ex mo unlike pag ibang babae lang na hindi mo kakilala.
About dun sa bestfriend ko, well, alam ko namang ayaw talaga nila dun and ayaw din naman ng bestfriend ko sa kanila. At ako? lagi naman akong nasa gitna pero yung pagiging nasa gitna ko yung nagpahamak sa relasyon namin ng ex bestfriend ko. Sa totoo lang, parang mas gusto ko naman talaga dun sa mga kasama ko nung third year highschool eh, sa kanila lang ako malaya, parang totoo ako sa sarili ko unlike pag kasama ko yung bestfriend ko nun, parang lagi ka na lang dapat maging tama or karesperespeto sa lahat ng tao, kahit gusto mong sumigaw, ma-excite over something, hindi ko kayang ilabas dahil iba ang tingin niya sa mga ganung tao. Pero buti na lang at natapos na rin yun, nagawa ko lang naman yun dahil sa mahal ko ang bespren ko pero sinayang lang niya lahat. Oo nga, siguro, para sa kanya ay binackstab ko siya pero ang hindi niya alam ay napilitan lang ako or nagpacontrol nanaman ako sa ibang tao, hindi ko sinisisi yung boyfriend niya ngayon na close friend ko or namin before pero siya rin naman ang nagtulak sakin para masabi ang mga masasakit na bagay sa bespren ko. Sabi nga nung kasama ko nung friday, malamang siniraan nga talaga ko nung guy na yun para maging sila ulit ng bespren ko. Iba talaga ang dating pag ibang tao ang nagkwento tungkol sa mga sinabi mo sa taong malapit sa inyo pareho. Ang mali lang ng bespren ko, hindi niya inalam kung bakit ko sinabi yun, hindi niya alam na impulsive lang ako that time. And sinisi niya lahat sakin kung ano man ang nangyari sa kanya at sa mga naging boyfriend niya. Isa lang masasabi ko, kung talagang kilala niya ko, hindi siya maniniwala sa ibang tao pero sa tingin ko ay hindi, after 6 years, wala lang siyang alam kundi magpasweet sa harap ko, loved me but she never understand the real me. Okay na sana eh, kung tinanggap lang niya mga pagkakamali niya at mahirap talaga para sakin na gumitna. Pero salamat na rin dahil nakawala na ko sa anino niya at wala na rin ako sa gitna. ^.^
Sa thursday, magkikita ulit kami ng mga friends kong yun kasi bday nung isa naming kabarkada.
Isa sa mga ex ko na may gusto pa din sakin ay makikita ko ulit. Pumunta siya nung birthday ko before pero sa totoo lang, ayoko talaga sa kanya eh pero parang pinaglalaruan ko na siya. Alam naman niyang friend lang talaga ang turing ko sa kanya.
Listening: Lily Allen - Womanizer
Feeling: reflective
A lot of things happened both in school and in the family. I spent my last weeks in school by going Lualhati ng Maynila and Elsie Gaches which are institutions handled by the DSWD to help the elders and children who are mentally-illed. Specifically, Lualhati ng Maynila is an institution to help the elders who are not with their own families. We help a program and I enjoyed it, they also enjoyed it as well. Tama nga yung sinabi ng professor ko, may maaamoy ka nga talagang amoy lupa sa mga matatanda, this is not something bad to think of but it's true. Some elders hugged and kissed me on the cheeks, maybe they just miss their own family and got suprised to know that they have a visit from us. Next is when we went to Elsie Gaches, it's an institution that is handling children or elders that don't have their families with them or they were being abandoned. These people are mostly mentally-illed, multiple disabled and have birth defeciency. First group we encountered are the women that are mentally-illed. The speaker gave us an activity to ask the names of those people but sad to say, only 1 in our section got an answer to those women, I surely tried to speak to them but it's really hard. Next group are the multiple-disabled children and we also saw how nursed treat them and how they teach them, maybe this tour is an introduction to our Psychiatric Nursing which I am targeting including Medical-Surgical this third year, I just hope this year will turn out pretty well for me. I dunno whether I should have a new life right now. Should I get better this year and stop playing games or continue being happy-go-lucky type. I'm sure it will change as soon as I go bach to school on monday, seriously, I don't want to go back to reality yet!
2 days ago, I'm so relieved when I got enrolled and knowing that I'm still in the same section, 3F and with the same group. But sad to say, some of my close friends got transferred to other sections. But at least, I'm still with my closest friend, Riza. :D Right now, I am thinking of changing my layout but I dunno when. And there's no adobe photoshop installed in my pc since it was repaired. Anyway, I am still hoping to see my former highschool classmates this week or maybe not? I dunno, I really feel of seeing them.
Lastly, we went to Real Quezon last friday until saturday, I was with my mom and her colleagues and her colleagues' family. We just went on swimming at the beach. Sad to say, we didn't brought our camera on those days but the picture of us in my mind will last forever. ^_^ I can still say, my vacation is worth it because of it.
na ko sa GAMES! Hindi lang sa Facebook applications, meron na rin akong games installed in my pc like Ranch Rush na parang farm din. Sobrang adik na ko, I can't stop myself from playing all of them. Ano kayang mangyayari sakin sa pasukan kung ganito ko. Anyway, enrollment naman namin bukas around 1 pm. Malakas ang kutob ko na mapapasama ako sa section A ulit pero sana talaga hindi.
Ngayong araw na toh, kumain lang kami sa Jollibee malapit samin kasama yung pamangkin ko pati yung asawa ng kuya ko together with my parents. Ayun, tapos may chocolate cake na bili ng mommy ko. Sana sa June 15 pa pasok namin pero ang kutob ko sa June 8 na. Hay. As usual, bitin nanaman ang bakasyon ko.
Minsan, merong mga tao na talagang hindi mo maiiwasan na matagpuan o makatagpo sayo. Kahit anong iwas mo, maliit ang mundo ng Tabulas. Kahit magtago ako sa nakaraan, sila pa din ang makakakita sakin, kahit ganoon man, salamat pa din. Sorry pero hindi na ako tulad ng dati. *talks to herself*
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